ShengSi. It is Chinese for Life-Death. After all, what is life? Is death not our ultimate end goal? Life and Death bring harmony to nature. It balances life and destiny.

Sid. JV. Harren. Sharky. 16. Chinese. Manila. Junior. Xavier HS. COCC. Diyos. Procrastinator. Aries. Horse. History-Freak. CSI. Webdesigner. Writer. Sterotype. Psycho. Schizo. Weird.  Unpredictable. Outcast. Special. H3H. Discriminated. Future Ruler. Math-Hater. Shark-Lover. OC. Extentialist. Empathic. Argumentative. Messianic Complex. 100% Teen Angst. Paranoid. Fickle. Deadly. Power-Hungry. Discontent.

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Xmas Break Starts - 12/15
Xmas Mass @ XS - 12/24
Christmas Day - 12/25
New Year's Eve - 12/31
Lunch w/Relatives - 12/31
New Year - 1/1
Return to Hell - 1/3
Meeting and Detention - 1/4
Akwe Duty - 1/6
Report Card - 1/12
PTC - 1/16

1. An Apple Laptop
2. Fatigues
3. iPod Video
4. S1 or S2 position
5. Learn Rifle Tricks
6. Passing Grades
7. Respect
8. Powers!!!
9. Divine Intervention
10. The "Perfect" Life
11. A new mobile phone
12. DSL
13. Money Money Money
14. Better Friends
15. A Prom Date
16. New Combat Boots
17. DVDs of Series I want
18. Tons of free clothes
19. Starbucks Planner
20. A Necklace

School today was almost like yesterday, but reality sank in and almost no one was complaining anymore that there were classes today.

During Advisory period, our Class Adviser (who is also my Chem teacher) asked us theoretical questions like “If you had two 65s the past semester and you have to get a 93 to pass, what will you do?” And then he’d alter the question a bit and then he’d ask random people for answers. With the answers of my classmates ranging from cheating, bribing teachers and donating a building, our teacher finally gave us two choices: to focus on the failing subject or to focus on the others. Then Kester told me a good point. If you’re failing just one subject, try to focus on it but maintain the grades of other subjects. If you’re absolutely failing in everything, try your best or just give up and attend summer or get held back a year. The final words of our adviser was “Would you rather spend your summer in Boracay… or in school?” It occurred to me. Every single May of my High School Summer was/will be spent in school. I had PKK during first year and second year. This summer, we’ll have summer training for CAT next year. [officership, whoot!]

Chinese was considerably boring. I nearly slept. Math was relatively okay because we were now applying the Cosine, Tangent and Sine with problems that had angles of Elevation and Depression. It seemed to easy with the discussion, but when I started doing the exercises, I just realized how hard it was. I just can’t understand the reason why things seems so easy when the teacher explains it, but when you actually do it, it seems harder. I have this natural defect with math. Chemistry was okay too. We’re learning about the Kinetic Molecular Theory. Tomorrow we’ll discuss the quantitative aspect of that, and I’m sure I’ll flunk it again.

That reminds me. I forgot to mention a few things yesterday. Alfonso, Martin and I also had a short “agreement” [if we WILL keep it that is] that we’ll dye our hair according to which college we end up in. And also, they’re bringing back the Junior’s Field Trip to Corregidor some time this month. I’ll try to arbor a camera and use it for the trip, although the thought of riding a ferry across water does not work miracles for my hydrophobia [deep water lang naman]. Kester also told me that the guy who committed suicide hanged himself, and once again my mind was filled with images on how to kill myself. I also want to write another story which sana sana sana matapos ko na for real.

During computer, our teacher ended up in some sort of rage again because Kester was playing with the computer. Damn it! All she gave him [and the class] was like silence and glares half the period. She gave me detention. As my classmates would say, WHORE.

The only non-boring part of English was when our teacher asked us “Would you gamble your life for the life of a classmate? And then you win…” Hehe.

Lunch. MY GOD! Aside from the platoon’s patapon and dysfunctional mode to perform the drills properly [due to Xmas break hangovers], a startling revelation was revealed to us. Since it’s the fourth and final quarter, we’re allowed to have HANAY every single [school] day of the week. OH MY FUCKIN’ GOD. Normally, I’d go into a state of nirvana or euphoria, but being in the current lazy and hakunamatata mood that I am in, I’m partly terrified. But then, I’ll be able to save LOADs of lunch money which I can still use to get that SB planner and give Alfonso commission for it. WAH! 5 days for each of the next 8 weeks. [not counting the last 2 weeks of school and the activities this quarter].

We watched a half a DVD of a movie called “the Color Purple” in Filipino which served as some sort of pre-lecture on feminist movement and the male-dominated society to be depicted in our novel for this quarter, Dekada 70. In SocSci, it was still very boring and all we did was basically run through the PowerPoint presentation with notes.

Dismissal, I was supposed to serve detention but I talked to our supervisor who agreed that I have it next week instead. YES! I went with Alfonso to Jay Young’s office. Michael and Martin were already inside. Then they talked and stuff. Then Alfonso said that there was this freshman who was similar to me; my protégé says he. Martin then says it’s like the “clone” of me when I was a freshman. Okay…weird. He entered the room some time later and then Alfonso was trying to get me to say the things the freshman said so he could see if we did talk and sound alike… [cricket sounds] Ang layo namin, swear lang!

I eventually left because I had to attend the Acquaintance Party meeting. At around 4:15, it had already started in the MPH. Max said that he couldn’t find the rest. So we waited outside the MPH to wait for the others. Aldo came to us and asked us about it. Then after a while, he asked Antonio and it turned out that Lance and Dexter were already inside. So we sat down and BLAH BLAH BLAH. We went to the patio to talk about shifting schedule and duty. Eck. The duty seems…uhm…blander than I imagined it would be. So after that was done at around 5:30, I tagged along with Dex and Max who called home. Max said he’d take long to be fetch since he lived far, as compared to the close distance Dex and I had to the school. We walked around the school for at least 10 minutes when I finally retreated to the gate and exited. The car was already there so I went inside and just thought about the pile of work had to do.

I got home and ate that Krispy Kreme Donut. YUM!

At dawn, warriors, squires, mages, oracles, seers, swordsmen and such from across the land emerged from the crevices, valleys and settlements in which they took solace for the time being. They once again brought with them their equipment: swords, axes, shields, maces and staffs. They adorned themselves with armor, cassocks, vests and robes to head out to continue their journey. Having been considerably well-rested itn the two weeks commemorating the Winter Solstice, from separate directions they converge into the same path that would take them into the main antechamber in the fiery depths of hell. In this is the final leg of the battle against hobgoblins, gremlins, harpies, demons and creatures alike, the danger, peril, and angst lie ahead. There would be more tasks, dungeons and quests. There would be more sleepless nights to plan the course of action, more training sessions, and surprises both rewarding and not. In the end, conquering this would give an even greater reward: a period of recuperation and rejuvenation to prepare us for the last and final stages of this inferno, better known as the High School Education System. After this final battle, it is total euphoria, until a new chapter begins– College.

So there is my overly-done introduction for my first day of returning to school. I think I’ve played Golden Sun a little too much don’t you think?

Anyway, school today was a total DRAG and a WASTE OF MY F-ING TIME [except for a few events to be expounded on later]. Almost EVERYONE was NOT in a mood for learning, and [almost] all our teachers gave us at least a third if not the half of our classes to do anything we wanted.
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IMPIYERNO NANAMAN BUKAS!

God give me strength. It's going to be a slow year.

Is it the end, or is it a new begining?

Personally, I feel it's just a crossroad between the old and the new. It's something that links it together. No matter what we do, we can't just simply throw away or forget the past and live out our future. No. We built our foundation from our past and we add heaps to it and make it better in the times to come.

So it's the FIRST of the LAST three days we have left for this dwindling vacation. Time flies when you're having fun, I suppose and this Christmas Break was surely fun for me. In a matter of a few hours, we'd only have two days left; in a matter of a few hours, it will be a New Year. Personally, I am rather anxious to meet this New Year because of this Christmas Break. Say what? Yes, this break gave me [as i see it] time to reflect.

First of all, I am thankful because this break gave me time to recharge myself before the fourth quarter, before I have to face the hobgoblins and liches in school, before all the f-ing schoolwork, and before the research paper crap. It also gave me substantial time to recall my pre-COCC life wherein I was FREE and I didn’t think about wanting to be S2, hanays or doing rifle tricks every single minute at the expense of my schoolwork. I’m away from all the wretched people!

I also got away from the evil backstabbing garden gnomes who constantly tell me about who did what and who is a what. Who should be my friend, and who should be not. DAMN YOU! Seriously now, I have better chances hanging out with Martin and Alfonso.

It also gave me time to talk to people about matters that were mostly not about schoolwork. I give a special shout out to BLi and my kapwa-deity, Paula. I give special thanks to the latter for encouraging me to do well in the Research Paper Defense (believe me, I’m excited na rin about it!).

I got to talk with people I couldn’t normally talk to in school such as Matt and Alfonso. Especially the latter, who reminds my why insanity is good. Too bad we weren’t able to go on extremely HIGH and INSANE mode during the mass at Xavier. Haha!

I GOT TO SLEEP LATE AND WAKE UP LATE GADDAMIT!

Christmas time landed me with a lot of goodies! Self-explanatory.

Also, I have more confidence to return to school, unlike a few hours ago. I have renewed hope, faith and confidence that I can manage to succeed in my tasks if I strive harder. It’ll be a challenge, but somehow I know I will have the upper hand. Tulungan na lang at sumikap.

WHOOT! So like I said…in a while it would be the New Year. Hopefully, like Paula said, it would be THE year. I sure hope it is. But then if it isn’t, we still have the power to turn it into OUR year right? Nothing worth having comes easy, so we really have to work hard.

I'm looking forward to a lot of things in 2007. One is IF my third quarter grade died. Next is the oral defense. Another would be the Fair/Variety show. There's also our DAYS WITH THE LORD and CAT Graduation. I just hope that 2007 is as fast as 2006.

My ONLY resolution would probably be one that sums it up, and that is to improve myself as a person in terms of physical, emotional, psychological and social aspects. I also want to take more open opportunities that I didn’t take because of my lack of gut and I want to be happy. There.

Sorry kung sabog yun entry. I don’t really have anything else to say [because I’m in the middle of playing GOLDEN SUN]. I just give a shout out to BLi who is still in Hong Kong. Oi, pasalubong ah! Haha! Joke. And I give a HAPPY NEW YEAR greeting to all my peeps out there.

May the new year bring us all more opportunities to improve on ourselves and to make us better people. I hope that we can all make this all OUR year.

SEE YOU ALL IN 2007!!!

*continues playing while fireworks are exploding *

My theory was proven right; after Christmas Day came, everything else went downhill. As in every climax, it has to come to an end. In a few days, it would be time for classes to resume (ours is on the third of January). Crap. Christmas was very fine though. It was spent very simple, but I was fairly happy because of the family time and also the gifts that I've received. I'm especially thankful for the Clothes (medium, buti naman) and a watch, among other things. I'm also giving a shout out to Raphie for giving me that Keyblade (KingdomHearts) keychain that I just love so much. Thanks! I'm really thankful for this Christmas. But it came as it went. There was barely a holiday hangover.

I'm rather depressed about how I ate so much PASTA that I think all my lunch-free days during the latter of 2006 would be put to waste. I ate lots during the nochebuena, lunch at my Grandma's house, Xmas meal at my aunt's house and last night's dinner at Teacher Thess and Teacher Jude's house. Then there is still another family lunch with my cousins and their children (who came from Canada). There would be a lot of eating that I wish I didn't have to partake in. After all, I must lose a LOT of weight, get in shape (exercise) so that I can remain a medium and not a large and so that I can be fit.

I'm also having one of my "I-want-to-have-powers" and "I-want-to-be-someone-else-I-choose-to-be" so-and-so again. I don't think these would ever fade away.

So I tweaked the layout again a few days after I turned it into a shark-themed layout. I'm starting to get addicted to One Tree Hill again so I had to make a layout. But just because I changed my layout, it doesn't mean I don't like sharks anymore. SHARKS ARE SO COOL!

There is barely a week of Christmas Vacation left. I have to move on. Hopefully after learning how to sleep late this vacation, I may be able to apply that new ability this school season, but I need to re-work the time I wake up which was drastically delayed by two and a half to four hours.

After more that a few weeks of putting it off, I finally finished the set of interview questions I was planning to make. Now I need to do the actual interview and then transcribe it afterwards. I just know that Fourth Quarter will cause my untimely death. I can already forsee all the chaos that will begin to unfold from the first day of the Fourth Quarter. Then after the whole school year is over, I have to worry about college applications and stuff. I still can't think of a gadam course. sigh. I just need the will to carry on.

I hope this break recharged me enough to survive having to face all the grunts and goblins in the school, along with the homework and tests.

Good luck to us all.